{"id":5053,"date":"2017-06-15T14:28:14","date_gmt":"2017-06-15T12:28:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/?p=5053"},"modified":"2017-06-15T14:30:02","modified_gmt":"2017-06-15T12:30:02","slug":"kandirilmislik-ilami-sair-emel-kaya","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/?p=5053","title":{"rendered":"Kand\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k \u0130lam\u0131 – Emel Kaya"},"content":{"rendered":"

Argasdi 46. say\u0131m\u0131za konuk olan \u015fair Emel Kaya’dan “\u015fiirde zaman” \u00fczerine…\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

46. say\u0131y\u0131 hala almad\u0131ysan\u0131z t\u00fcm kitap evi ve marketlerden alabilrsiniz.<\/em><\/p>\n

Kand\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k \u0130lam\u0131<\/b><\/p>\n

Bir \u015fiirin ne zaman yaz\u0131lmaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp duruyorum bir s\u00fcredir. Elime kalemi ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m zaman yaz\u0131lmaya ba\u015flamad\u0131\u011f\u0131 besbelli art\u0131k. Elimden kalemi b\u0131rakt\u0131\u011f\u0131m vakit bitmedi\u011fi de. K\u00e2\u011f\u0131ttan ve kalemden \u00f6ncesini kestiremiyorum. Oysa m\u00fcthi\u015f bir \u2018ba\u015flam\u0131\u015fl\u0131k\u2019 ve dahi \u2018bitirmi\u015flik\u2019 duygusu i\u00e7inde, muzaffer bir komutan edas\u0131yla dolan\u0131yorum ortal\u0131kta. \u201cBir \u015fiir daha yazd\u0131m! Bir \u015fiiri daha bitirdim, ey ahali!\u201d diyorum. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc bana haddimi bildirecek olanla hen\u00fcz kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fmam\u0131\u015f\u0131m. Hen\u00fcz \u2018tamamlanmam\u0131\u015fl\u0131k\u2019\u0131n d\u00f6rt ba\u015f\u0131 mamur tan\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 yapacak olana, \u2018zaman\u2019a toslamam\u0131\u015f\u0131m. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc toslasam, \u015fiirin ne vakit ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131 ve ne vakit bite(meye)ce\u011fini ay\u0131rt eder, susup k\u00f6\u015feme \u00e7ekilirim \u00e2d\u00e2b\u0131mla.<\/p>\n

Yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, senden \u00f6ncekilerden illaki bir bi\u00e7imde el alm\u0131\u015f ve senden sonrakilere illaki bir bi\u00e7imde el verecek yazd\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131n, ebediyetle filan bir ili\u015fkisi oldu\u011funu san\u0131yorsun ya, bir fiil yan\u0131lsamas\u0131ndan \u00e2z\u00e2de olamad\u0131\u011f\u0131n i\u00e7indir bu. Bu, t\u00fcm \u2018yaz\u0131c\u0131lar\u2019a bula\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir zaman vebas\u0131d\u0131r. Zamana meydan okuyabilece\u011fi sanr\u0131s\u0131yla gezinen zavall\u0131, bedbaht kalem tutucular! Azizlik gibi, \u015fiir de bir macerad\u0131r oysa. E\u011fer bir hakikat ar\u0131yorsan, \u015fiirden uzak dur Emel! Hakikat pe\u015finde ko\u015farken zaman\u0131 a\u015ft\u0131\u011f\u0131n fikriyle sarho\u015f sal\u0131n\u0131yorsun. Bu sarho\u015flu\u011funla, sevin\u00e7lerle kederlerin kadim simetrisini bozuyor, yalpal\u0131yorsun!<\/p>\n

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Bana kulak ver, iki k\u0131ssa anlatay\u0131m sana:<\/p>\n

\u201cL\u00e2-mek\u00e2n! Ad\u0131m\u0131m\u0131 nereye koyay\u0131m?\u201d diye s\u0131zlan\u0131yordu bir \u015fair. Zaptedemedi\u011fi, \u00e7eki\u015ftirip durdu\u011fu can\u0131n\u0131, sersemliklerini, ci\u011ferlerini, dala\u011f\u0131n\u0131, sonra virg\u00fcllerini filan koyacak yer ar\u0131yordu. Ona, zamana da\u011f\u0131lan endi\u015felerini g\u00f6sterdiler. Bunlar benim de\u011fildir, dedi, ink\u00e2r etti. Ra\u011fmen, zamand\u0131\u015f\u0131 bir kristale t\u0131kmak i\u00e7in derleyip toplamaya kalk\u0131\u015ft\u0131 hepsini. Ad\u0131m\u0131n\u0131 f\u00fctursuzca oraya koydu, \u015fiir dedi bunun ad\u0131na. \u00c7ok yan\u0131ld\u0131. \u00c7\u00fcnk\u00fc ona, ad\u0131m\u0131n senin de\u011fildir, dediler. \u201cHer \u015fey bana y\u00fckt\u00fcr\u201d diye inledi.<\/p>\n

\u201cBak sana zaman\u0131n ruhunu verdik; gezin oralarda.\u201d dediler bir ba\u015fka \u015faire. \u0130nand\u0131 elbet. \u0130nanmay\u0131p ne yaps\u0131nd\u0131? Cazibe vard\u0131 bah\u00e7esinde, yorgun d\u00fc\u015fleri ve \u00e7atlam\u0131\u015f kemikleri i\u00e7in \u00e7e\u015fit \u00e7e\u015fit teselli vard\u0131. \u015eeylere ba\u015fka adlar verdi -g\u00fczel adlar- ; \u015feylerin gazab\u0131 ona \u00f6vg\u00fcler olarak g\u00f6r\u00fcnd\u00fc. Zaman\u0131n ruhunda s\u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcrken, zihnin mezarl\u0131\u011f\u0131nda sal\u0131nmakta oldu\u011funu anlayamad\u0131. \u201cHer \u015fey bana y\u00fckt\u00fcr\u201d diye inledi.<\/p>\n

\u201cHat\u0131rlad\u0131\u011f\u0131m kadar\u0131yla, vaktiyle, hayat\u0131m bir \u015f\u00f6lendi, t\u00fcm g\u00f6n\u00fcllerin a\u00e7\u0131ld\u0131\u011f\u0131, t\u00fcm \u015faraplar\u0131n akt\u0131\u011f\u0131 bir \u015f\u00f6len. Bir ak\u015fam, G\u00fczelli\u011fi dizlerimin \u00fcst\u00fcne oturttum. -Ve onu \u00e7ok ac\u0131 buldum.- Ve s\u00f6vd\u00fcm ona.\u201d diyen Rimbaud\u2019ya kendi hat\u0131rlad\u0131klar\u0131nla, verdi\u011fin g\u00fczel adlarla kar\u015f\u0131 \u00e7\u0131k hadi! G\u00fczellik ac\u0131 de\u011fildir, de! Diyemezsin! Hat\u0131rlamak i\u00e7in \u2018zaman\u2019\u0131 bilmen gerek. Zaman, sana l\u00fctfunu bir daha g\u00f6stermeyendir.<\/p>\n

Zaman\u0131n ve \u015fiirin oldurulmu\u015flu\u011funa and olsun, zaman beni ge\u00e7ip gitti! Vars\u0131n ge\u00e7sin, uzakta bir k\u00f6\u015fecikten, \u00fc\u00e7, be\u015f, yedi k\u00f6\u015fecikten sark\u0131p dursun; g\u00f6z\u00fcme filan da g\u00f6r\u00fcnmesin. Densiz! Mezar\u0131ma dahi gelmesin m\u00fcmk\u00fcnse!<\/p>\n

Zaman\u0131n ve \u015fiirin oldurulmu\u015flu\u011funa and olsun, \u015fiir de \u00f6yle ard\u0131nda b\u0131rak\u0131yor beni, m\u00fctemadiyen. Bu hik\u00e2yede en zavall\u0131, en ac\u0131nas\u0131 durumda olan benim! O halde b\u0131rak\u0131n \u015fiir ve zaman i\u00e7in \u00fcz\u00fcl\u00fcp s\u0131zlanmay\u0131. Bana ac\u0131y\u0131n! Yazd\u0131k\u00e7a arkada kalan, \u00fczerine bas\u0131l\u0131p ge\u00e7ilen, taht\u0131ndan indirilmi\u015f, bu mel\u2019un zaman ve hadsiz \u015fiir taraf\u0131ndan b\u00fct\u00fcn kaleleri zaptedilmi\u015f, m\u00fclkleri elinden al\u0131nm\u0131\u015f bana ac\u0131y\u0131n!<\/p>\n

Ben, erken trenlerde (1)<\/i>, bir \u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n nar a\u011fac\u0131 (2)<\/i>, ate\u015f karalamalar\u0131 (3) <\/i>taraf\u0131ndan kand\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131m! Bir m\u00e2n\u00e2 cennetinin buza\u011f\u0131lar\u0131yla oyna\u015f\u0131yordum. Di\u015fledi\u011fim s\u00f6zlerin haddi hesab\u0131 yoktu. \u015eeyler ve harfler bana \u00e7arp\u0131p \u00e7arp\u0131p d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu, d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyor, evriliyor, ba\u015fka ba\u015fka g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcyordu. Ben, kutsal ayinlerin \u015faman\u0131, mezmurlar\u0131n Davut\u2019u, S\u00fcleyman Mabedi\u2019nin Meryem\u2019i, bir sabah g\u00f6zlerimi a\u00e7t\u0131\u011f\u0131m vakit, m\u00e2n\u00e2n\u0131n cennetinden kovulmu\u015f, kendimi otoban kenar\u0131nda Dodge marka kamyonlara otostop \u00e7ekerken buldum!<\/p>\n

Bir \u201colmaya b\u0131rak\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k\u201d taraf\u0131ndan kand\u0131r\u0131ld\u0131m ben!<\/p>\n

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(1) Boris Pasternak, Se\u00e7me \u015eiirler, (\u00c7ev: Azer Yaran), Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

(2) Odisseus Elitis, (\u00c7ev: Cevat \u00c7apan), Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131.<\/p>\n

(3) Tomas Transtr\u00f6mer, (\u00c7ev: Cevat \u00c7apan), Can Yay\u0131nlar\u0131.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Argasdi 46. say\u0131m\u0131za konuk olan \u015fair Emel Kaya’dan “\u015fiirde zaman” \u00fczerine…\u00a0 46. say\u0131y\u0131 hala almad\u0131ysan\u0131z t\u00fcm kitap evi ve marketlerden alabilrsiniz. Kand\u0131r\u0131lm\u0131\u015fl\u0131k \u0130lam\u0131 Bir \u015fiirin<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":5054,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[40,67,38,42,1,39],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/wp-content\/uploads\/2017\/06\/11181297_1047618085257336_5458189203598005365_n.jpg","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4eHWX-1jv","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5053"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5053"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5053\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5056,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5053\/revisions\/5056"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/5054"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5053"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5053"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5053"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}