\u00d6l\u00fcmden sonra muhtemelen hayat yok. \u00d6l\u00fcmden \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feye dahi hayat diyebilmek i\u00e7in sabah ak\u015fam didinip durmam\u0131z gerek zaten. K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan sonra muhtemelen hayat var. Bir k\u0131s\u0131m insan hal\u00e2 kabullenmekte zorlansa da, K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan \u00f6nce ise kesinlikle hayat var. Ya\u015f\u0131yoruz i\u015fte.<\/p>\n
Yok \u00f6yle \u201cya\u015famak bu yang\u0131n yerinde\u201d diye \u015fairane g\u00fczellemeler yap\u0131p sonra da \u00e7akan ilk k\u0131v\u0131lc\u0131mda \u201cya\u015fanmaz art\u0131k, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm olmadan ya\u015fam olmaz\u201d diye ka\u00e7ak d\u00f6v\u00fc\u015fmek\u2026 \u015eairane g\u00fczellik yap\u0131lacaksa illa ki \u201c\u015fimdiden \u00e7ekilecek ac\u0131s\u0131 bunun \/ duyulacak mahzunlu\u011fu \u015fimdiden \/ ya\u015fad\u0131m diyebilmen i\u00e7in\u201d\u2026<\/p>\n
Yok \u00f6yle gerek tu\u011fladan gerek sosyal medyadan \u00f6r\u00fclm\u00fc\u015f duvarlara yald\u0131zl\u0131 harflerle \u201cd\u00fc\u015fmana inat bir g\u00fcn daha ya\u015famak\u201d diye yaz\u0131p, d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131n ilk hamlesinde \u201c\u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm yoksa ya\u015fam yok\u201d diye boyun b\u00fckmek, ense karartmak, umut ka\u00e7\u0131rmak, direni\u015fi rafa kald\u0131rmak…<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
K\u0131br\u0131s sorununun g\u00f6lgesinde, hele de K\u0131br\u0131s\u2019\u0131n kuzeyinde ya\u015famaya dair beylik laflar kendi kendini t\u00fcketse de, beylerin ve han\u0131mlar\u0131n t\u00fcketim al\u0131\u015fkanl\u0131klar\u0131 kolay kolay de\u011fi\u015fmiyor. \u015eikayet etmenin ve s\u00f6ylenmenin yolu bir \u015fekilde hep bulunuyor. \u201cT\u00fckeniyoruz, yok oluyoruz\u201d diye diye sivriltti\u011fimizi sand\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z dillerimiz, di\u015fe bile dokunmuyor. \u015eairin dedi\u011fi gibi yani, ya\u015famak de\u011fil, bizi bu tela\u015f \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcyor. K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan \u00f6nce ya\u015fam; alternatifsiz itirazlar\u0131n ve itirazs\u0131z alternatiflerin g\u00f6lgesinde s\u00fcr\u00fcp giderken, bu iki ba\u015fl\u0131 koro, nakarat\u0131 hep ayn\u0131 olan o bildik \u015fark\u0131y\u0131 m\u0131r\u0131ldan\u0131yor: \u201c\u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce hayat yok\u201d…<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Peki \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce ne var?<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce i\u015f kazas\u0131nda \u00f6lmek ya da yaralanmak var. Ancak \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce i\u015f kazas\u0131nda \u00f6lmemek ve yaralanmamak i\u00e7in ses \u00e7\u0131karmak yok. Neden? \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmaz. Anayasam\u0131z\u0131n ge\u00e7ici \u201c\u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmaz\u201d maddesini gelmi\u015f ge\u00e7mi\u015f t\u00fcm s\u00fck\u00fbnetler kald\u0131rmaya zaman bulamad\u0131lar ne de olsa. Peki ama\u2026 bir dakika! \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce i\u015f kazas\u0131nda \u00f6lmek olur, yaralanmak da olur\u2026 bunlara kar\u015f\u0131 m\u00fccadele etmek neden olmaz? Yine mi bir anayasa maddesi keyfi bir bi\u00e7imde uygulanmakta? Yine mi yasa kimisini kollarken, kimisinin g\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fcn\u00fcn ya\u015f\u0131na bakmamakta?<\/p>\n
“Anlamak isterim, hangi yasa<\/p>\n
Bir be\u015fikle bir dara\u011fac\u0131n\u0131<\/p>\n
Ayn\u0131 a\u011fa\u00e7tan, ne ad\u0131na var edebilir?”<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce d\u00fczensiz mesai saatleri, g\u00fcvencesiz i\u015f, belirsiz g\u00f6rev tan\u0131m\u0131, i\u015fyerinde mobbing, eksik yatan ya da hi\u00e7 yatmayan sigorta, yetersiz maa\u015f ve s\u00f6m\u00fcr\u00fc var. Ancak \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce \u00f6zelde sendikala\u015fmak i\u00e7in m\u00fccadele etmek yok. Neden? \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmaz. C\u0131s. Ay\u0131p.<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce ne var? Sorun var. Bol bol var. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm yok mu? Yok. Taze bitti. Hi\u00e7 mi yok? Asl\u0131nda hi\u00e7 gelmedi.<\/p>\n
\u201cNe hasta bekler sabah\u0131,<\/p>\n
Ne taze \u00f6l\u00fcy\u00fc mezar.<\/p>\n
Ne de \u015feytan, bir g\u00fcnah\u0131,<\/p>\n
Seni bekledi\u011fim kadar.\u201d<\/p>\n
\u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce ne var? Dert var, tasa var, s\u0131k\u0131nt\u0131 var\u2026 \u00e7ok var. M\u00fccadele? Yok. Direni\u015f? Yok. Varsa da, \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmden sonras\u0131n\u0131n cennete a\u00e7\u0131lan kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131n koluna bez ba\u011flay\u0131p dilek tutmak i\u00e7in var, adak adamak i\u00e7in var, mum yakmak i\u00e7in var. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce daha rahat nefes alal\u0131m diye m\u00fccadele yok, direni\u015f de yok.<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
Yok mu?<\/p>\n
\u201cnerede olursan ol<\/p>\n
i\u00e7erde, d\u0131\u015farda, derste, s\u0131rada,<\/p>\n
y\u00fcr\u00fc \u00fcst\u00fcne \u00fcst\u00fcne<\/p>\n
t\u00fck\u00fcr y\u00fcz\u00fcne cellad\u0131n<\/p>\n
f\u0131rsatc\u0131n\u0131n, fesatc\u0131n\u0131n, hayinin…<\/p>\n
dayan kitap ile<\/p>\n
dayan i\u015f ile<\/p>\n
t\u0131rnak ile, di\u015f ile<\/p>\n
umut ile, sevda ile, d\u00fc\u015f ile.<\/p>\n
dayan r\u00fcsva etme beni\u201d<\/p>\n
K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan sonra muhtemelen hayat var. Nas\u0131l bir hayat olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 ise, K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan \u00f6nceki hayat\u0131m\u0131z\u0131 nas\u0131l ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z belirleyecek. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcm ve bar\u0131\u015f, cennetin kap\u0131lar\u0131n\u0131 aralayan bir anahtar de\u011fil \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc. Bar\u0131\u015f bizlerin ellerindedir ve bar\u0131\u015fta yiyece\u011fimiz ekme\u011fin hamurunu, bar\u0131\u015ftan \u00f6nce yo\u011furur ellerimiz, hayata tutunurcas\u0131na, hayat\u0131 pahas\u0131na. Hamur da ellerimizdir, f\u0131r\u0131n da, ate\u015f de. Ellerimizden ba\u015fka bir \u015fey de\u011fildir bar\u0131\u015f. Ya\u015famazsak K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan \u00f6nce, \u201c\u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcm olmazsa hi\u00e7bir \u015fey olmaz\u201d diye diye \u00e7\u00fcr\u00fct\u00fcrsek ellerimizin tuttu\u011fu her i\u015fi; hamur bozulur, f\u0131r\u0131n y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131r, ate\u015f s\u00f6ner. \u00c7\u00f6z\u00fcmden \u00f6nce al\u0131nan nefestir \u00e7\u00f6z\u00fcmden sonra ta\u015f\u0131yaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131z akci\u011feri havayla dolduran.<\/p>\n
***<\/p>\n
G\u00f6r\u00fcr m\u00fcy\u00fcz o g\u00fcnleri?<\/p>\n
\u015eairane g\u00fczellik yapal\u0131m, illa ki:<\/p>\n
\u201cBelki ben<\/p>\n
o g\u00fcnden<\/p>\n
\u00e7ok daha evvel,<\/p>\n
k\u00f6pr\u00fc ba\u015f\u0131nda sallanarak<\/p>\n
bir sabah vakti g\u00f6lgemi asfalta salaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n
Belki ben<\/p>\n
o g\u00fcnden<\/p>\n
\u00e7ok daha sonra,<\/p>\n
matru\u015f \u00e7enemde ak bir sakal\u0131n izi<\/p>\n
sa\u011f kalaca\u011f\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Ve ben<\/p>\n
o g\u00fcnden<\/p>\n
\u00e7ok daha sonra:<\/p>\n
sa\u011f kal\u0131rsam e\u011fer,<\/p>\n
\u015fehrin meydan kenarlar\u0131nda yaslan\u0131p<\/p>\n
duvarlara<\/p>\n
son kavgadan benim gibi sa\u011f kalan<\/p>\n
ihtiyarlara,<\/p>\n
bayram ak\u015famlar\u0131nda keman<\/p>\n
\u00e7alaca\u011f\u0131m…<\/p>\n
Etrafta m\u00fckemmel bir gecenin<\/p>\n
\u0131\u015f\u0131kl\u0131 kald\u0131r\u0131mlar\u0131<\/p>\n
Ve yeni \u015fark\u0131lar s\u00f6yleyen<\/p>\n
yeni insanlar\u0131n<\/p>\n
ad\u0131mlar\u0131…\u201d<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
\u00d6l\u00fcmden sonra muhtemelen hayat yok. \u00d6l\u00fcmden \u00f6nce ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m\u0131z \u015feye dahi hayat diyebilmek i\u00e7in sabah ak\u015fam didinip durmam\u0131z gerek zaten. K\u0131br\u0131s sorunundan sonra muhtemelen hayat var.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":9,"featured_media":8468,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"jetpack_post_was_ever_published":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"jetpack_publicize_message":"","jetpack_is_tweetstorm":false,"jetpack_publicize_feature_enabled":true,"jetpack_social_post_already_shared":true,"jetpack_social_options":{"image_generator_settings":{"template":"highway","enabled":false}}},"categories":[40,67,38,9,42,1,39],"tags":[],"jetpack_publicize_connections":[],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/wp-content\/uploads\/2021\/10\/k\u0131br\u0131s-sorunu-foto.jpg","jetpack_shortlink":"https:\/\/wp.me\/p4eHWX-2cz","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8467"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/9"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=8467"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8467\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8469,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/8467\/revisions\/8469"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/8468"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=8467"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=8467"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/baraka.cc\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=8467"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}